moving, friends, and life in general right now

So i thought about moving to Bellingham into my own apartment. I even had an offer, which was a really good one, I must say. However, I decided not to go through with it. I don't think i am ready to move just yet. First, I need money, which I need to save up. Second, the motive behind moving was totally wrong. The reason why I felt I was ready to move was I thought it would help me to "establish myself" as a person. But when I thought about it harder, I realized that I was wanting to do it to prove Bob wrong. Prove him wrong about the fact that I am not sucessful, and that I do nothing with my life. But then I realized that I really don't need to prove myself to anyone...not even Bob.
I think I found a true friend at work...finally. Her name is Brandy. She is a really nice person. The only issue i have with her is that she is a lesbian. She has a girlfriend..whom she wants to get married to. I want this to be an opportunity to be a witness to her. Show her that not all Christians are full of hate and contempt for the homosexual lifestyle. I am not about to point out the splinter in her eye. Besides, I am not very close friends with her. However, if she were to ask me to be in her "wedding", I think I would need to decline, because I don't agree with it. And going to the wedding would show that I agree and support that lifestyle.
Anywho, life in general is good right now. I have a good car, good family, great friends, and I love my job.
So until next time!

Relationships Part 2

So the last time we spoke was on relationships..here I was trying to discover another subject to talk about, but I had some things I had to get off my chest first on relationships. I just got out of a 4 month relationship with a guy. I shall name him Bob on here. I thought I we were in love, but it turns out we weren't. I tried to love him, but no matter what I did it wasn't good enough for him. He claimed that he loved me, but I didn't feel like I was being embraced for who I am as a person, which, I think is the foundation for any healthy relationship.
Through this experience, I learned how to stand up for myself. I was not going to settle for someone who didn't treat me like gold. Trust me, it was not easy though. I wanted to be loved and cherished by a guy, and I know I would miss all the companionship and affection. But I loved myself too much to let myself be sucked into manipulation. I would rather be alone than be abused.
I know what some of you are thinking..especially some guys who are reading this. Please believe me when I say that I am not about to turn into a feminist and say that "all men are pigs". There are wonderful guys out there. I have many guy friends who I love to hang out with. In fact, they are one of the reasons that I broke off the relationship with Bob. It turned out that I enjoyed talking to my guy friends more than to Bob. I felt more respected and loved by my guy friends than I did when I was with Bob.
That being a huge red flag to me, I took action and got rid of him.
In the end, Bob and I aren't even friends. And to be honest, I don't wish to be. I don't need that kind of guy in my life even as a friend.
Right now I am satisfied with being single. I plan to save up money to get an apartment. And to explore the world around me (no pun intended). Until next time, farewell!
Dora

Relationships...

Relationships are hard..whoever says they are easy is someone I would like to talk to and get advice from. I was dating this guy for 5 months, and we decided to take a break for the time being, just because he was really busy and couldn't commit completely to our relationship (long story). But its fine, we still talk and we plan to still see each other as friends for the time being. I just can't help but wonder what is going to be down the road...isn't that how all women are, though?
Well, maybe that question should be for another blog..but as for this one, I think that in a good dating relationship between a man and a woman (funny how I have to specify that because of the world we live in, eh?) they should be best friends...understand each other. I think they should feel a connection on an emotional level, and most importantly on a spiritual level. Anywho, until next time, have fun!